Meditation

I am sitting alone.

The men in my life belong to my past.

Reinout belongs to yesterday.

Mohammad belongs to last month.

Tashi belongs to last year.

Rony belongs to last decade.

Four men

four cultures

four relations

four memories in my body

four imprints in my soul

And in my present only me exist.

The men in my life belong to my past

perhaps to my future

but in my present they are absent.

I am sitting alone.

Observing my present.

Letting them slip out of my thoughts

out of my touch.

Clearing my mind

clearing my body.

They belong to my past,

perhaps to my future,

but in my present exist only ME.

Sit and watch the mountains

Sit and watch the mountains.

The strongest power on earth.

My constant motivators,

my inspiration.

Weathered on the outside,

fresh on the inside.

In our lifetime they are constant.

Always there,

defying all forces.

Bearing marks and scars,

dykes, folds, faults, landslides...

yet they are undefeatable.

Lasting on their inner strength.

Like me.

What are you afraid of?

What are you afraid of?

I'm afraid of scorpions...

I'm afraid of regretting my life...

I'm afraid of not living to my own expectations...

I'm afraid of never feeling again the way I feel when I'm with you...

You make me feel things I haven't felt before

You make me see things I haven't seen before

You make me understand things I haven't understood before

You make me want things I don't want with most guys...